Getting In My Own Way

I did it again.  I was moving along so nicely. Steady and calm.  I was clear about my daily goals.  Studying for my Keto health coach certification for three hours. Check!  Taking care of my daughters, including driving them around from place to place.  Check!  Walking Poppy and not just a half assed walk…a substantial hike.  Check!  Anything my husband needs from me.  Check!  Connecting throughout the day with my Keto Club.  Check!  So how did the hell did I get seduced off my path?  I’ll tell you how, money!

Here’s my embarrassing story.  I bake ketogenic goods.  Yummy ones.  I enjoy making them for my friends and family, well, my husband.  My daughters, 15 year old twins, eat the food that looks like regular food.  The minute I create something that is  obviously Keto, they frown, balk, wince and make some snarky comment.  They hate it before they even taste it.  Whatever… age appropriate, I suppose.   Okay, back to my story and I’ll make it short.  I got it in my head (actually Melanie, my pal put it there) that I should bake for the local farmers market in Katonah, NY.  The next day I am on the phone with the woman who is in charge of all of the farmers markets in Westchester.  She loved the idea of Keto baked goods, thought it could be a hit.  No one is doing it, she told me.   That’s when it happened.  I pictured myself at the beatific farmers market on a Saturday morning, crowds of interested people inquiring, “What is this Keto thing all about?” ” What? No sugar? Low carb bread, are you kidding?” ” I can lose weight eating pizza?”! “I need to buy 30 loaves right now, oh, and add 50 Keto brownie bites too”!  Next I pictured myself cooking full time in my kitchen, having helpers, and creating packaging.   I even went so far down the road that I imagined what my shipment trucks would look like.  Back in real life, I made phone calls to the city and inquired about insurance, home kitchen regulations, professional/industrial kitchens. I even found a church with a kitchen I could use.  Reality came down hard.  The hoops I’d have to jump through, the money I would have to put down, the stress, the irritation and the deadlines!  What the f’ am I doing?  How did I get here?  I just want to help people with their health, not start an empire…

I got up the next morning and went for a walk with Poppy.  I was confused, drained and paralyzed. I called my friend, Dana.  I told her about my story.  With a few words, she brought me back to myself.  I was reined in.  My delusions gone, my stress disappeared.  In lieu of an empire, we came up with small and joyful ideas for me.  Breadcrumb steps.

I had been there before.  Many times.  Starting with something I’m passionate about and then taking some detour that ultimately made me quit everything.  In hindsight, it almost seems like I do it to myself on purpose.  A form of sabotage.  Thankfully, in this case, I caught it in the early stages.

I love my path so much.  I’m connecting with the greatest people and reconnecting with inspiring old friends.  All of this is happening organically, not forced. The journey has a mind of it’s own.  I just need to let go of the wheel, and get out of the way and trust!

 

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My amazing husband, Jeff and Poppy…yes, they both eat Keto

 

Keto Begins-The Keto Club Creation

I first heard about Keto through my friend, Melanie.  Melanie is like family.  One evening she came into my room and something she said caught my interest. It had to do with Keto.  I can’t recall now exactly what she said, I only know that something in me was very curious, more than curious, ignited!

My search for Keto had me diving into google searches, YouTube videos, podcasts and Pinterest pinning.  On March 21, 2018, I made my first Keto dish.  I know this because I took a photo of the final result.  It was a Zucchini Gratin with Bacon.  How is it that eating zucchini with plentiful amounts of bacon (oh my God, really?) and cheese can be good for you? The casserole ended up being so incredibly delicious and satisfying. Day after day and night after night, I  continued my research.  I was eating 100% Ketogenic by then and never felt better.   Continue reading “Keto Begins-The Keto Club Creation”

My journey from a sugar sh!t show, to Keto.

Today I want to write about my relationship with sugar, my main addiction.  Many people discuss this subject so often because it has an insidious grip on the body, mind and spirit.  There are those who know what I’m referring to, and those who don’t.

When I was 14 years old, I decided that I needed to put myself on a diet.  Through my eyes,  I just wasn’t thin enough.  Looking back now, I was thin…maybe not thin enough for a Beverly Hills girl.  This diet was carefully documented in a little journal.  Breakfast was 3 strawberries, lunch was lettuce soup, dinner was lettuce soup again.  After school, to burn those stubborn calories, I would jog from my house to a hotel gift shop about a mile away from my house.  I bought Trident peppermint sugar-free gum.  I ended up swallowing the whole pack every time.  I lost weight.  It was very exciting seeing the numbers go down on the new doctor’s scale my ex-stepfather bought.  I was in control of what my body was doing.  It was a high.  This ritual continued.  I got very skinny.  I was able to fit into my little sister’s cognac colored pants.  At some point, I got ravenous. Continue reading “My journey from a sugar sh!t show, to Keto.”

How Keto Found Me

My whole life I’ve either been high or low, black or white…no shades of gray. I’m learning about the middle parts. It’s a new language to me. Being an all or nothing person has brought adventure into my life, but it has brought unrest too. Now that I’m 54, finding a mid-point, balance…sideways is my daily goal (dislike that word, but it’s accurate).

I decided to write this blog in hopes that there might be a few people out there that might relate to me and my story.  I also hope that through my research, education and pure curiosity, people will be interested in the things I discover.  Ketogenics, Nootropics and a bit of biohacking are central to my life now.  I am in the process of getting certified as a health coach mainly focusing on the Ketogenic lifestyle. Continue reading “How Keto Found Me”